I am going to claim this on the world wide web… because that makes it true, right? I am creative… and honestly, that title is not something I have trouble claiming… I call myself creative all the time. The part of it I have trouble with is embracing it, it’s letting my creativity out there for others to see, to critique, to judge… you see, being creative isn’t just something I do, it’s something I am… it’s the way God wired me.
And when I share my creative endeavors with the world (no matter how small the “world” or audience may be… even if it’s just my hubby), if it’s not received, I feel like it’s a smack to my face and it makes me feel like I’m not living out my faith… living out who he made me to be…
When Peter stepped out of that boat, he had faith, he believed he could walk on that water to Jesus… but the wind and rain clouded his mind and he began to sink. And for me, when I create something, whether it’s lettering or painting or even a meal, it’s like stepping out of the boat… and then suddenly, the waves (the voices of doubt) crash in and I begin sinking…
And, after I start sinking… I abandon everything…
God is faithful, God won’t abandon me… and I need to be faithful to Him, not abandon Him.
He who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it. Philippians 1:6
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
I was blessed to be gifted with three sessions with a life coach… and this particular life coach is a sister in Christ… and our ever faithful God is always weaving together His plans for us. In my first meeting with this coach, she asked me some questions that really challenged me… got my brain turning … and then we decided that I should work on a vision board, a way to keep God’s plans, God’s direction, in front of me. But, this, even this simple sounding task… a task that should have allowed me to be creative… to be who God made me to be…that was harder than I thought….those waves
of doubt and fear came crashing in on me and the vision board sat in a holding pattern on my desk for several days. But…. today, today I pushed the fear aside, I stepped out of the boat, I didn’t take my eyes off Him. And, you know what, it’s not perfect… it’s not even as I had envisioned it being… but it’s done and it’s hanging on my wall where I see it several times a day.
A vision board is designed to help keep some one motivated to keep reaching for their goals, to keep their dreams, their vision, in front of them so that they are inspired to reach them… but it’s a double edged sword for me… it’s not my dreams, my goals, my plans I want to see come to fruition, I want God’s plans for me to come to fruition. So… my vision board, it’s not so much plans and dreams … but a reminder for me to keep my faith, to keep my eyes on Him, not on the wind and the waves crashing around me, a reminder that he has plans for me….plans for welfare not calamity, so this vision boards is to remind me to have faith!