I am my own worst critic.
I speak ugly words to myself,
I don’t allow myself grace,
I don’t accept my own excuses
(even if it appears I do),
But, I am learning,
learning to tell the bully in my head to be quiet
(ok, really I tell it to shut up, but I tell my kids that’s a phrase we should use, so…),
I am learning to not make excuses but rather speak truth,
to find the silver lining,
the lesson or technique I learned.
I am not a “Susie Sunshine”, but I am honest with myself…
that meal wasn’t good, but I learned what spices NOT to mix together,
that tire on that painting is way out of proportion, but I learned how to mix colors, or I learned about proportion.
And the biggest lesson I have learned,
or rather been reminded of
we all start somewhere,
and every step I take in a new direction
is a step of progress,
which, in my opinion,
is better than sitting still in fear!